1^st Day of January 1882
How the years are multiplying. these blessed late years that the lord has had Me away from loved ones & the wilderness teaching Me So much about himself. lessons that any but a dull pupil would have learnt long ago. but for all this, he has Oh So patiently led Me to feel that the Solid rock is under My feet. that My poor naked Soul is in the refuge. been at home with him today for last nights Christmas tree was too much. the Women & children happy but the Men Sullen having more councils. Oh Lord keep Me So very near thee this year that I will not be Moved up or down by this moody people. this time two years ago I was doing business in great Waters with the Lord. he delivered Me from waves that I then felt sure would over whelm Me & well May I trust him for the rest of the way. My heart & prayers have been much in the little cottage home. pet Mary is nearly a year in heaven. I See what I have been longing to See in Lizzies letter that the Lord is inclining her heart to him She & My boy go to Sabath School & She loves those little books. he can teach best with Me away. Oh that his words May abide in Me So that he will answer My prayers for the C’s & brothers family & for this poor people & My Woman. More of thy love I [illegible] thou loving patient Guide

8^th Feb 1882
How quick Jan went because My Women took a fresh Start after the fearful Arms the most of them had from vaccination. have not been enjoying as sweet interviews this Winter With Jesus as the two winters before. A dispossed to assert Self too Much in My S room. but often the Lord leaves Me until I am brought to feel My dependance & then Oh how kindly to not punish Me. Sue. I have Said Oh it is the Christmas tree & letters that have come between. today I have Sent to Steubenville & Dugrow? so that excuse a poor one is gone. but My energy My own heart will get up Something else. how little foothold I have even yet in Canan. & how comfortable the Lord has fixed Me here with Rachel & Enock. Rachel has become So much like a White Woman in her house & ways. & not at all Moody. Oh that I was more of a Missionary & less of the teacher Where will I be if living next winter is a question - here or Lapwai. Mrs Wheeler & Fannie Hays Saw how to make bread yesterday but they like to do the easiest ways. but I have much to encourage Me & Much within to discourage. What beautiful things Steubenville Sent for Christmas.

March 5^th
The Lord gave me a token today. As I took My front Seat I looked around for Martha Who has been in a fret. not been at S. for a week & would not Sit near Me last Sab. & today I was thinking now if it was not for Martha I would have nothing to prevent My communion. So just then the Lord Sent her up the Aisle & there was No other Seat free but just beside Me. I fear So much to venture any exposition in S. S. lest I make some mistake. I think I will write out a few Sentences for it looks as if it was an anxity to learn Nez P or English. Obie was not in Class. Peter Obies brought word that the Agent Would Soon Stop. it is time if he is playing the fiddle for the dances.
Solomen has Said he will Session him. What a disgrace to be Sessioned by this people. What precious readings we have lately in the Salms. Mrs S. Seems to comprehend the Spiritual part better than the rest. & Rocher & Mary. how interesting Davids life is & has been. Oh Lord the Seed the ground is thine let every grain bring forth fruit Oh but God has been good to keep Rachel & Enoch in the house with Me. for I think I would not have been Able for much exposure. truly he has met every want. but Oh Lord guard me against the reading My bible in the part Set apart as devotional? in Nez P. for heart can not Meet heart while it is Such a Study. Lord bless the dear ones in the old home in this month for it is nearly a year Since My Pet was taken to the fold. Lord blessings full & free on all the family from the old hearth Stone.

March 19^th 1882
Kamiah took up its first collection for Missions today. Eleven years ago every one of them here heathen. it is Gods work to him be all the praise. daily do See the improved appearance of the poeple. many newly done up Shirts today Since the Shirt Starching party. I know this is a Sad lonely day in the little old home for one year a go dear darling pet Mary Spent her last Sab in a home she had So brightened. nearly a year in heaven. how glad I am that She is in. May the Lord give special comfort there today & always.

3^d Sab April
Presbytry at Lap. many of our people there Jimmie Lawyer preached this morning & Old Samuel one of Mr Spauldings pupils after S. S. I had the S. S. told a little in Nez P of Noahs Ark. how I do long to talk to them. but how little I can say even with much thinking. perhaps Mr & Mrs D. will be up next Sab. Billy prayed for all the Whites today but Sue. how they all do love prominence. Am reading Leviticus Again. how comforting to Sing, I am So near So very near to God as near as near can be for in the person of his Son I am as near as he.
Rachel & Enoch are at Lap & I am enjoying the house. can Sing & talk aloud to Jesus without restraint. & feel more disposed to of late. May the Lord bring not only Myself but dear ones nearer. the New Agent is not at Lap yet.

May 21^st 1882
Mr D. preached today but it seemed So lifeless coming through his spiritless Lap. interpreter in comparison with Roberts forcible manner! A proud day for K. he Mr D said as we walked home together. the announcement was made that Soon our four preachers & their wives go as missionaries. Mrs. Wheeler Sat beside Me on front Seat with her traveling dress on her shawl in corner wise & with the first hat on that was ever worne here into the church by an Indian Women. It was decided not to investigate Marthas case. the plotters too anxious to tamapiki but the Stories will follow for there was a Umatilla with his long plats Sitting up front. Robert forbid the going to Lewiston to the horse racing & Mr D. indorsed. if the Lap community was only like this. Mr D talks much about My going to L. but with the feeling about the New Agent little could be done. the horseracing dancing & the drumming revived give a Sad picture of a community which have had So many privileges. but the Lords work only will Stand. What firmness & wisdom is needed here & how wise & busy Satan is. & in how many things that I thought Sue wrong at first I See now She was right. Oh I hope I am not too proud of My Women the bell is ringing.

Monday June 11^th 1882
How apparently quiet K is. Robert is away with Mr D & the Missionaries to Umatillas. Mrs Wheeler could not go - lying Sick at North Fork. the Tide of Unpopularity has Set in against Sue. the Stand She took in M.’s case. would not let it be investigated. I fear Much injury done. the Council at Lap last week decided the R. R. could not come through the Reservation & that they would not have Charly M. as agent. three months Since his appointment & his commission not here yet. What will come out of all this God alone knows. Miles has ordered Chapman the Interpreter to Fort Lapwai. that means a talk. the camp meeting was announced for Lap. Enoch & Rachel will go in three weeks to Spokan. Oh how lonely it will Seem when they are gone. My Organ has reached Lap after a year on the way. I do not know yet whether I am to stay here or go to Lap next year. May the Lord decide this question. & give Me greater nearness to him how much I need it. I know when depressed & lonely communion is interupted. for well I know that Jesus is sufficient to Meet & fill any circumstances. precious Sentance in Lizzies letter. Mary’s Rock is My Rock too. May this make Me more earnest in praying that he May be Robbies Rock too.
Will Charly M. come on the Reservation & what will the end be. it does seem too bad that this people do not have a Say in the Matter of an Agent. K. is far enough advanced to do this. what a year of turmoil this has been at Lap.

Last Sab June 1882
Fourth of July is to be at Lapwai this year in hopes the Lap people May be blessed. Mr D is quite discouraged. What Strong Men Should be sent as miss among Indians. Silas & W^m are in tents among the Umatilla. Robert returned from Umatillas bringing two heathen Men with him. they are nice looking middle aged Men in citizens clothes & as I watched them in Church today their undivided attention to all that was said Said plainly We have come to inquire more particularly into this Matter. may the Spirit answer their questioning faces & hearts. What a chosen vessel Robert Seems to be. Mr D. explained to him on their trip that Some time he Should be in his place as evangelist & go out to other tribes. & is quite willing now for him to go away to School. Enock & Rachels last Sab here in this house with Me. how I can look back & See the tender loving care of My Father in giving them to Me for two years. Oh how loving & patient the Lord has been to Me especially in Idaho. May the Lord abundantly bless them to the Spokans. & get great Glory to him Self from the Nez Perce Mission
Sue & I expect to go with the M^cConvilles in the waggen. Most of the people expect to go & See the Gov. of Idaho in Lewiston on the 4^th .May the Lord Wictwa nuna.

July 17^th Kamiah 1882
The third 4^th of July has passed among this people A quieter one this time because We all three hundred Men Women & Children with 500 ponies Went to Lapwai Where the long hair & blankets predominate. poor Lap. the camp as I Saw it every morning before breakfast will remain a vivid picture on My Mind. & the evening circle of Worshipers around the central fire as well. but the coming home We two whites Sue & I. the camping at Cold Springs - the worship there. the Singing of the night watchman - the boys as they rode around the great band of ponies - the care of Soleman & Felix in fixing our Waggen into a tent -- but clearer than all the view from Caldwells hill of that company.Womens traveling dress - the native slip of bright color. but how good it felt to be with our own people & then the grand review of all as they passed us. in the twelve Miles of forest between Caldwells & Cold Springs. the Women with the pack-horses hurrying on to put up the tent & get Supper. then the camping again at the Ferry for the boat was useless. the waggen taken apart & taken over in a Canoe & the Swiming of the horses. over the swift river it was. So good to rest on the blanket & watch it all & was glad to get home if it was a short visit of two weeks. At Lapwai parted from My faithful Rachel & Enoch. they with Robert taking the trail to the Spokan Country as Missionaries. James Hays & Fannie decided Not to go. how lonely My house Seems with out R & E who have lived with Me two years.

Aug 10^th 1882
The fewest at church today I have ever Seen. Away trading hunting & fishing not in great Co’s but by families. had a good letter from Rachel Seems to like the Spokan people. but Says her heart is sick because the people can not Sing the Songs of Him she loves So well. they will Soon have the S. S. papers I sent for both at Umatillas & Spokans & perhaps a Christmas tree. the Little Ind Ter band has written About Saddle or Magic lantern. of course the lantern. I tried to have My Women learn one verse today. I See it is So necessary that distinct truth be impressed. I am astonished at the amount of repetition in the Sermons. they think they are wise now. What a good Mail this week. the Lord has been gracious & kept Me from punnishment in the Matter of Dans reporting Mt Idaho to Washington.
What a fright I had this week after My talk to Mary Johnston about heaping coals of fire on her old Mother in laws head. Sue told Me She would think it a charm. take it litterally. So I went down to the river & called Mary Mary. & So worried if the canow had been on this Side. think would have tried the pole but either the Lord made it plain or So dark that She did not See anything in it at all for the Old women is not burnt at all. Always Something to worry if I am not as near as near can be. Snakes. Washington. Now Rob going to Yankton. Why can I not Sing evry day as I did once. No trouble near Jesus.

Last Sab Sep 1882
Sitting here in Rachels room beside the old Stove & very thankful I have it to Sit by. by order of Agent Montieth My good Stove that Jesus So often Sat & talked to Me by was given to Parker for his bride wife to Cook upon. this room in My house is almost a Sacred one for in the two years Rachel & Enoch lived in it the Sound of there earnest voices in prayer or praise is still heard. if they are now among the Spokans as Mis. the Church was fuller todsy than Usual although the leading families are Still away hunting or fishing. Robert among them. although Presbetery Yackamas Synod & Portland School ought to be attended to. the old wild life has not lost its power. Sue is troubled I See. She would be brokenhearted if R. Should do as Mark did. although M is & has been going Straight for a year. So the Lord has decided for Me Not to go to Lapwai by Dyers Staying. it will all be made plain why. Oh the troubles of L. Inspecter from W. been to investigate charges against Agent Campbells discharged by Agent & retained by Inspecter. hope the Lord will My brother from going among Dakotas. how patient the Lord has been with Me through this long hard vacation. Am Sleeping now at M^cConvilles. Oh Lord make me watchful In a family like this. Wish I could always feel Jesus will Soon be here

Oct 15^th 1882
Church S. S. & all seems so small. Many away yet Robert among them. Will the Lord leave him to Wander. after eight years that he has been the guide of this flock. S not opened yet. Sue is thinking of her dictionary instead. Oh that the Lord will guide this wayward people. Who could but the all wise one. James Hays who preaches evrry Sab. is becoming more enerjetic.
I opened My bible at Some marked places in 2^nd Chap of Hosea & could See Myself by the kitchen Stove three years ago in this house. Swolen eyes but Saying truly thou hast led Me to the wilderness to Speak comfortably to Me. & true the next verse is for in these last three years he has taught Me to Sing as in My youth. could even Start Some of the S. tunes today  today after three years of tender mercy. I am Sitting by Rachels Old Stove. She a Miss to Spokans. do not know who the Lord is going to Send to Stay in My house with Me but know he will fix it Some how. It is hard to go up & down to M^cC’s through all this rain. have been visiting much lately among the people. their house are as empty as they were three years ago. Such Sweet hymns in [illegible] Lizzie darling Must have one So that she May feel drawn to Jesus by them. I thought at first I could not Sing Beulah Land because precious Mother asked where it was. that Saturday She was in it. but I love it now & None of Self & All of thee.

Monday Oct 16^th
Rain rain every day for three weeks. this empty house seems Oh So empty. troubled about who is to Stay here this winter for I think Sue by one of her Shrewd movements is going to [illegible] Oh the Strong things She Said to Me today. the tears burn on My cheeks as they have not done since the first year I came here [illegible] ...the past & is partly my fault for teaching the [illegible]... the developments that May come from it. the Spiritual care of this tribe & all the tribes around. Mr D will See the mistake. I imagine the feeling in the community under the Surface to be bitter. but what a process has led to it. poor thing to live to See Such heights & depths. Ambition what an emply thing it is. it is so dark before Me but He knows He knows that is enough.  & today it has done Me good to look back & read of the deliverances of the past. I have been on My knees trying to confess My Short comings & Sins for My God is gracious & Will not chide forever but When his cause languishes what can cheer until. try to feel that it will not be always so. Oh that the Lord will lead Robert & the people back & draw Us all around his feet. Lord do not let Us Whites be stumbling blocks in the way of this people. Come Jesus come among Us. bless Me to the Unbelieving family. 

not Sab.Nov 24^th 1882
Solomen & Mrs S are so quiet in Rachels room. it is their first night there. May the Lord Make their Stay as profitable to Us both as Rachel & Eno. Sent Check to Dr. Lindsly for R.’s S. books. She can be such a good Missionay among Spokan Women & children So bright, So tidy & enerjetic,. Martha & Mrs Wheeler Among Umatila not So well prepared for work. Parker gone to Lapwai to See if Agent can not [illegible] it Somehow with the people. they are So enoyed about No Mill. poor things it does look cruel to See the pack trains. Women & children to go through a Snow Storm for Milling to Lapwai 65 miles Simply to carry out an Selfish end. it is Said that Many of the Women are hungry for bread. What will it be before Winter is Over. the S. rations are Still up in the log house. What dishonesty is going on as if the God of this poor people was not to be dreaded? the Campbella Still At L. notwithstanding the effort to get them Away. Robert & All have fallen back into their old places thanka to a faithful God. It is so good not to have to hunt a place to Stay tonight. five Months Since I slept in My own house. What a good letter from Mary telling of Sallie & the childrens visit & return home & Oh So glad the Lord has heard My prayer & Rob Sent back his license. no desire to live on a reservation . May I feel this is a tangible sign to strengthen My faith in Asking for his Soul. how Sweet the little book Sent by Carrie P Songs for the Masters Use by Francis R. Havregil.

30^th Nov 1882 Thanksgiving
Just been looking over some Christmas things from dear faithful Brighton. how faithful they have been. Lula Webber’s name sake is not forgotten. dear Mrs W. how many thanksgivings We have spent together. 10. Was at the New Mrs Parkers for dinner. Sue & Robert declined going. I do not know if Robert had the Same reason as Sue. the rations which has caused So much trouble are to be turned over to the S. Since it is known that Inspector Said So. to the Surprise of All. Lapwai S. is filling up. felt thankful for Mrs Crumrines letter thought Steubenville had grown cold. thank the Lord oh My Soul for all thou hast been to me here. how sweetly the spirit taught Me this morning of the rent Vail & the broken body of Christ were one. Oh that the Lord may lay bountifully to My hand this winter for this teachers Meeting on friday. the Lord I think has more for Me this Winter than My School.

Mon Dec. 1^st 1882
Must Make a note of Our Teachers meeting. today the innovation Men & Women Sitting in My S. room. Robert in the Armed Chair. What a priviledge is Mine to lead these Men & Women into clearer light & where their faith May behold how firm a foundation the Saints of the Lord have to build on. Our beloved Lords death. & the rending of the vail of the temple & his burial was the theme. the doing away of the Old covenant & the beginning of the blessed new one Sealed with the precious blood, I think was made clear. & My prayer has been following the word asking that none of Self be Seen, but all of thee. perhaps this is why I am to Stay here this winter. He knows & that is enough. Was disappointed that neither Mark or James was here to play. My playing is So limited.

Christmas 1882
What a grand refreshing Christmas this has been here in the little church even if We had no tree. The Spirit of the Lord Was with Us in felt power. the Sabath before Christ within the doors. Although this is My fourth Christmas never Stayed at Church to Watch the Christmas come in. Just the home Methodist New Years Eve. Oh how I wish friends could See the frocked church. hear their Sweet powerful voices & the many bearing Witness but how lonesome  they all are for their children. What a prayer poor Dick made. his darling little Ella is Numbered with the Multitude from K. Say children in heaven & the tender chord is touched. What a wail went Up When Robert Said Your hearts are lonely for Your Children. how freely & fully they confess things Whites would blush at.
The Men were all feasting at the time the children were treated to the cakes and apple & taffy. can See the boys peering in to their newspapers [illegilbe] delighted it was Something to eat. & the old Women were all anxious to get theirs. James & Peter L. had fun in their faces when they slyly watched Soloman with his dishpan go down the Aisle. Church again till 10 OC. Mark was called upon to pray - first in years the Lord only can move or manage this strange people,