Sabath 15 of 15th Sep 1879
My last Sab at least for years in the little cottage home. James Snowden preached from the text he shall see the king in this beauty. how hard to think of parting, With loved sister & her two darling children, Arte will remember all about his Aunt Kate, but not Mary. My boy is already so intelligent in bible, may precious truth never be effaced but impressions depened. how hallowed & sacred the memories around & in the dear cottage home with its sweet ____ & grand old tree, but I must not give way to all this sentiment, if God will only answer my Sainted father’s prayer & gather us a whole family in heaven, if [obscured] & the children. Artie Says he will Just take Mary’s hand & come to Me poor sensitive boy. So much like his Aunt Sue it is well in one way that there is so much hurry & coming of friends at the last, & so many tokens of love from dear ones.

Sab 22^d Chicago, Grand Pacific Hotel.
The parting is over but this poor week heart has such an ache & Still dear Lord I would not turn back even if I might. I can only glance at the pictures of that dear Sister & darling children - more would unmove Me. The farewill Services wednesday might were to Me inspiring - nothing of the pathetic with what fire Dr. Grimes. christians talk of Sacrifice, sacrifice why are you not ashamed of yourselves. all there addresses were appropriate & done Me good although trying to step forward & be introduced to Presbytary. Sorry that dear Mr. Hargast had so small a part in it. Lizzie as well as Mary was there. My dear only brother met me here poor fellow. how easily his tears come. Oh Yes Master why so long in answering prayer for him.

 San Francisco. Grand Hotel Sep 29^th 79
To tired after long journey to go to church, do not think from the No of open stores & flags flying that there is Sab. here. Oh but the Lord is patient with this sinful world of ours. even with the little company here going to the outposts under orders with so little of the spirit of Sacrifice. What will poor Mr. H do with her two little children I fear the board are not careful enough who they send out. the Hunter family enroute to Chinefu China. Hattie & Mary McDonald for Siam, Miss Hartwell for Bangkok & Myself for Nez Perce Indians conposed the party they traveled in state with air pillows gum bottle for feet & on three meals per day at $1.00 it so astonished Me.

Dr. Lindsleys (Portland Oregon)
That precious memoires of Gods mercy to Me since last Sab. We went on board of Steam Ship Oregon Monday arriving the ocean rather by smooth but when some hours out of Golden Gate a first class stiff breeze as the steward called it met Us. Up went bow & plunge down it went. in Sight of Cal - bleak there. 300 passengers. I was one of 5 ladies that did not have to use the little brown box fastened to berths.Many pass. were not Seen out of their State room until we entered mouth of Columbia. the 2^d day we met the Oregon rains it grew so dark at times the wind had changed & the great swells came broadside heaving ships up one Side & grew worse towards evening & all hoped the wind would go down & Midnight Sailors had been heard to say we will have a bad night of it and the whales were turning back I tried My berth by holding on to slots of upper berth could stay a few minutes. the Ship lurched so that at Midnight Sailors put up all Sails to help Steady it. then we went at furious rate [illegible] broadsides would come against heave the monstrous Vessel over until My window would Seem a Skylight. it would balance for a breathless minute then lurch back until the guards would dip water twice the broke over them every man was at his post poor Sailors holding on to Sides to keep from being washed overboard the card playing drinking & Swearing was all stopped the Old Episcopal lady in My state room did not need her prayer book that night

From San Francisco to Portland 1879
By Kate McBeth who arrived Lapwai Oct, 1879
The Master was in the Vessel & held Me So tight up to him self & said such precious tender things that I love to think it all all over. I watched the black white capped mountains as they came flying towards us the Vessel had been turned away from Shore I never was surer of anything than that dark ocean would be My grave. I told the Master that as he pleased but for the Sake of the dear ones at home would rather another time & place he never was away from Me more than a moment at a time only then the Vessel would Seem to be turning upside down I would reach out & the words Jesus Master Oh where before I could finish sentence I was drawn closer & the loving words came I am him Just beside You My father holddeth the Winds in the hollow of his hand & I am at the helm & You are only crossing the floor of another room in your fathers house the plains, Mountains & now the Ocean the same roof is above you. I held him tight & asked him to go with Me when I Stepped into the wild Sea and Said from the ends of the earth I will cry Unto thee, the ends of the earth were nearer heaven to Me that night than any other spot had been I may have reason to doubt My love for him but his for Me Oh never precious memories, may it never grow dim

 Sabath Dec 14th 1879 - Kamiak Idaho Ter
But this has been a blessed day to Me, to wet to go to church So I have sat here by the kitchen stove, with Jesus close by Me, talking to Me through one of the books dear Mr Hargest gave Me for Indian preachers. One of the texts from 1 Cor.11ch 32. When We are Judged, We are chastened, that We should not be condemed with the world. Surely My chastening has been keen  these last three months but I See today that it is all in love that I must be taken away from My dear Sister & children. Alone in these mountains (& come by way of the Sea too) in order to have this quiet talk & sight of My heart, he only knows My trials, chastenings he calls them. Gods children chas. because their Sins are greater than others, Not in light of law but of Gospel. Has he not called them from the world, redeemed them by the precious blood, taken them into his family, into his closet? & revealed his Secrets to them, clothed them in robe of Christs rightousness, & promised eternal life. 2^nd To Show his hatred of Sin. A proof of his hatred of Sin When his own Son Suffered on the Cross, ill. Brutus, when his two Sons were found guilty. Brutus do your duty, Strike them. 3^rd reason, the high value he Sets upon his children, he will not allow them as the Sinner to fill up the measure of their wrath. ill. David, he punishes at once & So spares us from being condemned with the world, it is not the sword of the Judge but the rod of the father, God cannot punish twice for the Same offence. he cannot condemn his children because they are his children, they are already justified in Christ every stipulation of the Covenant stands Sure. I know today that I am Christs & Christ is God, & can Say My Severe chastisement is all in love & is necessary.
It is not Us but Christ is Seen
When We approach to God.
In connection with the Sub. of Chastizement, how precious & pointed the 12 chap of romans was today to Me. What love & care God is showing Me in My trials. I have nothing to Say against the process now for already feel the good from it.

Kamiah Christmas 1879
I lay this cold morning under My paper comfort & Mrs. Campells blanket & quilt. & thought all over last christmas in the dear little cottage home My darling Sister I know is thinking of Me today & My precious children. I pictured Myself there & asked the question Would you leave it to undergo all the trials you have known here, I never would or could have realized the nearness of Jesus or the fullness of this new bible if there, Oh no, I would not have the precious experiences of these three months blotted out for now I know that Jesus is mine & I am his & although I seem to be So perfectly caught in a net. My father knows all & still Somehow (I do not know or care how) bring Me out. I have to be thankful that I have this poor shelter over Me. only for his goodness I would have been a homeless wanderer among this strange people. then Peter Sent the Chinaman over with So many good things for Christmass dinner, & dear Mrs Campell Sent her offering. was at the little Church today it was packed to the utmost Archie with all his grand Manner preached Robert Sat with head down. Oh these Lawyers how they do trouble people. I do not know that in all My life I have known So much intriguing & plotting for power. I do not know what is going on every thing is So Sly. Sometimes I get troubled & Say there is but one Step between Me & death. Oh the preciousness of Jesus when these fears enter. perhaps I have not had courage enough & must now take My Stand & Say My Mission is from Woman to Woman not to a selected few. the good So far Seems to be only to My Self. Sometimes I think perhaps you are nearly home & the way is like it was to the children of Israel more difficult as it draws near the close.

Last Sab of 1879. Kamiah
Heard both Robert & Archie preach but in an unknown toung. but the Lord has been here with Me this afternoon speaking to My poor fainting heart telling Me through the 43 chap of Isaiah that if I am in a net, that it is in answer to My own prayer but that when it is the right time he is able & will deliver Me. Oh no one ever had such a precious bible as I have. Satan has been buffetting Me about for days telling Me there is no way of escape but by the one means & that that reed will break under Me & all maner of things, but I have been to Mizpah again I do not get to stay long at Ebenezer. What would or could I do without the company of My Saviour. Alone perfectly alone so far as earthly friendship is concerned. Sometimes it Seems that I must be nearly home. the way is So hard. Oh So hard -- Not the water but the fire I am passing through now & cannot tell even home friends their hearts would ache so. I must be a great Sinner & My Soul of great value that the lord is taking So much trouble with Me. Oh that I may be able to serve him faithfuly here among these poor woman. I aught to be fit for Service soon. What wonderful things in My bible I See It Seems such a step up to Jesus So I send My love messages often that way to the dear ones at home May the Angel of the Covenant encamp about them.